Refusal

I will not be that man.

The one who looks back and wishes he had tried harder,
who wishes he had taken education more seriously.

I will not stumble while everybody runs off,
starts careers and families,
all while I sit and watch.

I'm horrible at school.
I am.

But if it means that I have to be in college for a few more years,
so be it.

I'll redo classes,
I'll be full time over the summer.

It's a horrible feeling,
failing yourself
and others.

I won't do it.

I won't be the guy who just couldn't quite make it,
while everybody lives out their dreams..

I will succeed.
I will (somehow) figure out how to do better in school.
I will have a family,
and travel the world,
and enjoy life.