bluh

Degenerative.

I'm not sure that's the correct word, but it feels right.

Degenerative.

Fuck these shadows we all walk on-
good lord, I'm tired of being alone.


Cause you've got the walk of a door and I've got the hands of a mouse,

lets just pretend I told you....

You looked beautiful tonight.
You're eyes are by far the most wonderful eyes I've ever seen.
Anytime I make you smile, I feel victorious.
Everything you say is amazing.

Lets pretend I said all that,
and that you heard me,
and that it wouldn't ruin everything.

We all walk on shadows.

Earth

Get me by the big tree, you know. By the creek -
just left of the big rock and the hole
where all the water disappears
into the ground
into a cave
into the earth
into the ocean...

Lets realize this is all one spot.
We don't have to go anywhere else -

So many of us look up,
wondering if that beautiful person,
whoever they are,
is watching the same stars.

But me?
I know that wherever I am,
we stand firm upon the same soil,
from which everything has grown.

Cloak

If you were to take me tonight ...
Yeah I know, I've said it before -
But each chapter on your sharp edge
is someone else's answer
rewritten.
I've looked at your palms before,
or maybe the keys resting there -
yet these thoughts of others,
Oh, consideration -
for now the first will not witness the last.
But, if you were to take me tonight,
'Hair Trigger',
On with all those sleepers stolen before -
I'll say in truth I wouldn't mind,
I wouldn't mind at all.

Why?

why
why
why
why

is this happening to me?

I have done nothing to deserve this,
nothing.

And if it is what it is,
then I am destined

to be

alone.

How can I progress -
move forward,


but its impossible. IMPOSSIBLE.
I know how it happens,
I know how one makes these mistakes.....

and I have not gone down those roads.




...what on earth is going on....

- =-

Your eyes were softer than I remembered,
than I thought they ever had been.
Hair framing an old painting tucked away in my attic
made me forget who I was looking at,
the petal-velvet smile
I had convinced myself was a dream,
tonight,
out of nowhere -
came you who I forgot.

Curse you,
curse you -

Never look at me like that again.

Deep water

Sinking in,

And I'll never truly know.
A year?
Two?

How long do I wait before I choose
not to care
what happens
to another....

The sting just won't leave -

We all walk on shadows.

One

I feel very alone in this moment,



but before we assume we know the word lets push the dark clouds away, and pick the briers out of the lush grass.



There is nothing wrong with it, to feel your thoughts reverberate from the walls

hit and slide down like the freshly falling leaves

during that first day of autumn,

when the cold is cold enough to remind you that you're still here

and yet does not take you.



And, after all...

my guitar is best played when unheard,

and my voice sings out loudest when it is known

that no one is listening.



But,

yet,



There is that bitter powder in the bottom of the cup,

that nagging thought of how undeniably wonderful it would be,

like seeing the sunlight through the last drop of rain,

If it were that I had two eyes,

two hands,

ten fingers,

one mouth,



and yet knowing that there were two of us.

.