Thursday, January 20, 2011




Interesting, how after reading the passage by Davis I'm still thinking about how much we have changed over time. The thing that I'm thinking about most these days, at least in the context of the essay, is how I seem to have forgotten the innate medicine of the earth.

Ok. Before I sound like a loony, let me explain what I mean. I'm talking about the innate peacefulness that can be found by taking a deep breath outside, or by taking just a few seconds to listen to the wind move.

I was laying on the roof of my apartment building a few days ago. The birds in the woods behind where I live were screaming and squawking, carrying on important meetings and delegations. The first star had come out and the air was cold.

Crisp.
Sharp edged and slow moving.

I can't wait for spring,
to watch the grass grow.

Someone very wise told me

"There is always something to look forward to"

and I think that so long as the ravens fly overhead
and the sun keeps rising

it is definitely, definitely true.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Things that are made



One of my best memories -

when the sky breaks like a seed pod
spreading its blueprint across the earth,
and when all things beyond the man-made
culminate into fiery, passionate particles -
assaulting your lungs with a war cry that exclaims
"I am!"

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

From "The Serpent and the Rainbow"

I woke twice before dawn. By the second time the stars had faded and light cracked the horizon. Venus had moved all the way across the sky, and now it too dimmed. I followed it until my eyes ached. I stared and stared until I couldn't even see the sky. But it was hopeless. Venus was gone. It shouldn't have been. Astronomers know the amount of light reflected by the planet, and we should be able to see it, even in broad daylight. Some Indians can. A few hundred years ago, sailors from our own civilization navigated by it, following its path as easily by day as they did by night. It is simply a skill that we have lost, and I have often wondered
why. Every human mind has the same latent capabilities, but for reasons that have always intrigued anthropologists different people develop them in different ways, and the distinctions, in effect, amount to unconscious cultural choices. In our society, for example, we now think nothing about driving at high speeds down expressways, a task that involves countless rapid, unconscious sensory responses and decisions which, to say the least, would have intimidated our great-grandfathers. Yet in acquiring such dexterity, we have forfeited other skills like the ability
to see Venus, to smell animals, to hear the weather change. Perhaps our biggest choice came four centuries ago when we began to breed scientists. Every society, including our own, is moved by a fundamental quest for unity; a struggle to create
order out of perceived disorder, integrity in the face of diversity, consistency in the face of anomaly. This vital urge to render coherent and intelligible models of the universe is at the root of all religion, philosophy, and, of course, science. What distinguishes scientific thinking from that of traditional cultures is the tendency to seek the shortest possible means to achieve total understanding of their world. We deliberately divide our world, our perceptions, and our confusion into however many particles are necessary to achieve understanding according to our rules of logic. We set things apart from each other, and then what we cannot explain we dismiss with euphemisms. For example, we could ask why a tree fell over in a storm and killed a pedestrian. The scientist might suggest that the trunk was rotten and the velocity of the wind was higher than usual. But when pressed to explain why it happened at the instant when that individual passed, we would undoubtedly hear words such as chance, coincidence, and fate; terms which, in and of themselves, are quite meaningless but which conveniently leave the issue open. Few laymen know or even care to know the principles that guide science; we accept the results on faith, and we simply defer to the accredited experts of the tradition. Yet we scientists
work under the constraints of our own illusions. We assume that somehow we shall be able to divide the universe into enough infinitesimally small pieces, that somehow even according to our own rules we shall be able to comprehend these, and critically we assume that these particles, though extracted from the whole, will render meaningful conclusions about the totality. Perhaps most dangerously, we assume that in doing this, in making this kind of choice, we sacrifice nothing.
But we do.

I can no longer see Venus.

Davis, Wade. The Serpent and the Rainbow. New York: Warner Books, 1985. 207-210.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Two posts, combined into one.

Post one

"And I am worth fighting for. Me. Myself. I am strong, I am free, I am proud and I am loved by many. There is passion within me that cannot be quelled no matter how much the fearful onslaught of the unknown may dim my vision or claw away at my spirit. In the end, the light will find its way back to me, and I will carry on."

Not a truer thing has been said. You ARE worth fighting for, my Liz. You are so vibrant in every way imaginable. I'm the reigning champion of being in a funk, a daze, a cloud of doubt and distrust... so trust me when I say I understand where you are, and that I absolutely know things will get better for you. This all sounds so cliche, I know. But cliches are rooted in truth and in truth I do love you. But whats more, It make me so proud that you love yourself, or so the quote tells. Amazing is a dull word when set next to you.

~~

Post two.

It makes me wonder what we all hide,
what we all never say.

"Look underneath the floorboards,
for the secrets I have hid"
-Sufjan Stevens

A carefree life is a tall order,
but its what I'm asking for.

Monday, January 10, 2011

Perhaps my roots don't run so deep -
the trees hold the dirt
and the earth stands them
upright.

But i've learned
not to grasp
so tightly.

Even the empty spaces of
an old, mossy trunk are beautiful.

Yes,

maybe I'm that.

perhaps.
Vines in woodlands,
and a dye made from
leaves
and twigs
and earth.
Red -
the reason we have our names.
White flash,
her predator's grasp.
I am disarmed upon
the forest floor.

Monday, January 3, 2011

snow, silent in hand.
squeezing hot coal into skin -
a single drop falls.