Gaaah

I really can't stand this guy's attitude..

Today at work my friend was talking about how she wishes she could work the 27th, but the shop is closed. All she said was,

"It just kinda sucks since I don't celebrate Christmas, and I never have."

One of the full time workers did NOT like this. He started telling her how she should be grateful, and glad she gets the day off,and how she was being a hypocrite because in the future she would gladly take Christmas itself off, because he obviously knows what decisions she is going to make.

After a while of hearing him puke ignorance from his "moral" high horse, I tried to explain to him what she meant. I didn't really get much of a chance to speak though. He said something to the affect of

"Well you celebrate Christmas...what are you complaining about?"

Truth be told, I DON'T celebrate Christmas. I celebrate Yule, which is very similar. I'll hang out at my friends Christmas parties, but Christmas isn't something I really celebrate. Its not that I wouldn't, I just don't.

But what I was complaining about was his bad attitude, his disrespectful nature, and his unwillingness to acknowledge that some of us want to get an extra ten hours on our paycheck, seeing as how the 27th and the 25th are not the same day.

Of course, this is the same guy who told us how lazy we are, and then proceeded to sit and breath heavily at the break table while the rest of us cleaned out six or seven roller set-ups. Not to mention he randomly disappears for whole shifts and then conveniently shows up when its time to leave.

so....the students who are wanting an extra ten hour day are the lazy ones and you, who have literally slept on the job, are not?

Your logic seems flawed, sir. flawed indeed.

-

I had something planned to write for today -

but its not what I want to write anymore.
It wasn't bad,
just less interesting.

I loved every word you said tonight -
though my tired midnight mind can't begin to explain it.
It was beautiful,
entirely.
And 'beautiful' is a very vast word.

My bed is wider than I had remembered,
and the room is a bit quieter than I thought.
And even though it hasn't lost its beauty,
and I am so glad to lay down to sleep...
I'll be happy when you can return
and I can drift to sleep
with you resting
beside me.

I am doing,
simply -
this gear
a facet
a chain
a sprocket.

Where are your eyes,
oldest earth mother?

I think
its time
to get
into my
car.

The road tells you things
that nobody else can -

Drums

They awaken something within me.

Something deep
and dark,
pagan.

I'm alive,
I'm alive.
Sweet soil,
I am alive.




P.S.

Becca, Glenn, Gean and I were downtown tonight. I took this picture for you, since you were at work. So, yes :)

Tonight -

You make me feel things that I thought were lost,
that I thought I had buried and left.

caring about someone,
like this -
I thought I had forgotten.

Thank you,
for bringing a happiness
I didn't think could return -

I repeat myself, and say the same thing over and over again.

The first fallen leaf of autumn,
sunlight through Aspen trees,
The first blossom to open in spring,
a line of perfectly written poetry -

You are beautiful
in every way.

Refusal

I will not be that man.

The one who looks back and wishes he had tried harder,
who wishes he had taken education more seriously.

I will not stumble while everybody runs off,
starts careers and families,
all while I sit and watch.

I'm horrible at school.
I am.

But if it means that I have to be in college for a few more years,
so be it.

I'll redo classes,
I'll be full time over the summer.

It's a horrible feeling,
failing yourself
and others.

I won't do it.

I won't be the guy who just couldn't quite make it,
while everybody lives out their dreams..

I will succeed.
I will (somehow) figure out how to do better in school.
I will have a family,
and travel the world,
and enjoy life.